Not Sure where to start

I'm a person that believes that shit happens and you shouldn't dwell on the past. Here lately that has happen alot to me and sometimes it's hard not to think about those things. I'm in a situation right now that really bothers me but I'm doing my best to sit back and just be happy and see where the road takes me. I'm in Iraq right now and I am away from the people that mean the most to me. I miss my best friend, my daughter and my son. They all mean the world to me. Here recently my world was turned upside down and when it happen i wasn't sure how to handle it but as time went on i learned something, and that was i want my best friend back. It doesn't matter why i didn't say it at first because that part is done, but here now i say it alot and she knows it. As time goes by u try and think what caused the situation but honestly it doesn't matter cause that time is long gone and with everyday you move forward and not backwards. I've always known that and I try to be that way. I miss what I have always had with her and I know in my heart i don't wanna give that up. She is lost and trying to find her way... Most people would just walk away but i can't seem to be like most people. I never have been your normal guy and seem to be more understanding than most. I'm a person that has been an ass to alot of people but to the one's i care about i give them all of me. I miss the person that i fell in love with, but most of all I MISS MY BEST FRIEND. She has always been my inspiration and made me feel like i should better myself. She is a loving and caring person and cares more for others than herself. Sometimes it gets aggervating that she tries to please people so much but she is just being herself. I wouldn't want her to change cause she would never ask me to change myself. It's weird the type of relationship we have compared to most and some of the shit we have done.... but i wouldn't change a bit of it. We never judged either one cause of the thngs we say or the things we do or wanna do. We except them cause thats who we are and thats the way we want to live our lives. Thats why i fell for this woman. She is everything that i am and everything i'm not. She complete's the other half of me and filled a hole in my life. I believe that i have given my hole self to this woman and hope that in time she will be able to do the same for me. I feel that she wants to but i haven't a clue if she is ready to....... I'm really not sure why this happen or even how, but honestly i don't care.. I slipped a couple of times the other day which is very unsual for me and i'm can't say that it won't ever happen again. I guess I'm human like everyone else and make mistakes. I wasn't mean or anything like that but i guess i finally needed to stand up and speak my mind. It actually felt good but i knew i needed to speak with someone about it and maybe just talk. So i did and boy did it work wonders. See all along i knew this but i guess people just need reminders at time. I have always said this to myself and even told her a few times but i got upset at something that i have no control over. So sometimes i can preach it but don't always follow it. I can't change the past but i can look forward and just be happy with what i do have. I can't control what happen...... so why worry about it...it won't make it go away, so just accept it and drive on and just be happy.... So i wake up with a smile on my face knowing i will have a good day..... and i drive forward with my life knowing it's in good hands.......... So i accepted the fact that i can't have everything completely with her right now but what i do have i cheerish the most and i know in my heart that it will be worth it..................