Forgetting the Little Things

I have been gone for almost 45 days now. Granted it's not relaly that long but it seems like for ever. Over the past 14 years i have been gone from home alot but this time it bothers me more than it has any other time. I have had alot of time on my hands to think about things and realized i have taken somethings for granted. You don't ever think about things like that until you see that there not happening anymore. I miss just being able to look at you, or how you hug me. I miss the way we kiss or just the sneek peeks i get at you when you r in the tub. I miss sitting with you on the couch or laying in bed and having conversations with you. I miss comming home from work and giving you a kiss or kissing you in the morning before i leave from work. I miss seeing you play with your son, or all of us just doing things. I miss the way you smile at me. I miss all the silly things we always do together. I miss going to dinner and the movies or even us just going somewhere togther. I miss how we play with each other, and all the fun we have had. I miss talking about all the hot stuff we have done and the fun things that we can laugh about later on. I miss being able to lay down in bed with you or even just waking up next to you. I miss being able to touch you in all the right spots or just even to feel your skin next to mine. I miss laying behind you and holding you while we sleep. I miss everything about you. I have always loved the things we do but never thought about how much i would miss them until now. It's those little things that mean the world to me and it's what i look forward to doing when i get home and see you. I miss my wife, my lover, but most of all i miss being next to my best frind Ginger.......

A few little words

Sometimes all it takes is a few little words to actually bring a smile from someone. A simple hello or how you doing usually always get's people to talk. A text in the morning before you wake just to say hello... morning beautfiul..... or even just to say i love you always helps. Sometimes just those simple things can really change a persons outlook of there day. I usually try to do something like that everyday for someone just so they know that i am always thinkng of them. I 'm not a person that ask for alot whether it's material things or even reassuarnce about my life or realationships. I have always gone with the flow of things and just have a positive outlook on life. Something happened to me yesterday that really made me smile and just made my day even better. I have been having great day's here lately and I've been trying to keep them that way but someone told me something that just really change my day. It was the first time she had said this in along time and it really made me feel good. I guess i needed alittle reassurance of something that normally i would always know. She told me she really missed me and i think that was probably the best thing i had heard all year long. She has so much going on in her life right now that i don't expect those things from her but she took the time out of her day and told me that and it really brought my spirits up...... So for that i really thank her and i hope she know's i truely miss her too.........

Not Sure where to start

I'm a person that believes that shit happens and you shouldn't dwell on the past. Here lately that has happen alot to me and sometimes it's hard not to think about those things. I'm in a situation right now that really bothers me but I'm doing my best to sit back and just be happy and see where the road takes me. I'm in Iraq right now and I am away from the people that mean the most to me. I miss my best friend, my daughter and my son. They all mean the world to me. Here recently my world was turned upside down and when it happen i wasn't sure how to handle it but as time went on i learned something, and that was i want my best friend back. It doesn't matter why i didn't say it at first because that part is done, but here now i say it alot and she knows it. As time goes by u try and think what caused the situation but honestly it doesn't matter cause that time is long gone and with everyday you move forward and not backwards. I've always known that and I try to be that way. I miss what I have always had with her and I know in my heart i don't wanna give that up. She is lost and trying to find her way... Most people would just walk away but i can't seem to be like most people. I never have been your normal guy and seem to be more understanding than most. I'm a person that has been an ass to alot of people but to the one's i care about i give them all of me. I miss the person that i fell in love with, but most of all I MISS MY BEST FRIEND. She has always been my inspiration and made me feel like i should better myself. She is a loving and caring person and cares more for others than herself. Sometimes it gets aggervating that she tries to please people so much but she is just being herself. I wouldn't want her to change cause she would never ask me to change myself. It's weird the type of relationship we have compared to most and some of the shit we have done.... but i wouldn't change a bit of it. We never judged either one cause of the thngs we say or the things we do or wanna do. We except them cause thats who we are and thats the way we want to live our lives. Thats why i fell for this woman. She is everything that i am and everything i'm not. She complete's the other half of me and filled a hole in my life. I believe that i have given my hole self to this woman and hope that in time she will be able to do the same for me. I feel that she wants to but i haven't a clue if she is ready to....... I'm really not sure why this happen or even how, but honestly i don't care.. I slipped a couple of times the other day which is very unsual for me and i'm can't say that it won't ever happen again. I guess I'm human like everyone else and make mistakes. I wasn't mean or anything like that but i guess i finally needed to stand up and speak my mind. It actually felt good but i knew i needed to speak with someone about it and maybe just talk. So i did and boy did it work wonders. See all along i knew this but i guess people just need reminders at time. I have always said this to myself and even told her a few times but i got upset at something that i have no control over. So sometimes i can preach it but don't always follow it. I can't change the past but i can look forward and just be happy with what i do have. I can't control what happen...... so why worry about it...it won't make it go away, so just accept it and drive on and just be happy.... So i wake up with a smile on my face knowing i will have a good day..... and i drive forward with my life knowing it's in good hands.......... So i accepted the fact that i can't have everything completely with her right now but what i do have i cheerish the most and i know in my heart that it will be worth it..................