Forgetting the Little Things

I have been gone for almost 45 days now. Granted it's not relaly that long but it seems like for ever. Over the past 14 years i have been gone from home alot but this time it bothers me more than it has any other time. I have had alot of time on my hands to think about things and realized i have taken somethings for granted. You don't ever think about things like that until you see that there not happening anymore. I miss just being able to look at you, or how you hug me. I miss the way we kiss or just the sneek peeks i get at you when you r in the tub. I miss sitting with you on the couch or laying in bed and having conversations with you. I miss comming home from work and giving you a kiss or kissing you in the morning before i leave from work. I miss seeing you play with your son, or all of us just doing things. I miss the way you smile at me. I miss all the silly things we always do together. I miss going to dinner and the movies or even us just going somewhere togther. I miss how we play with each other, and all the fun we have had. I miss talking about all the hot stuff we have done and the fun things that we can laugh about later on. I miss being able to lay down in bed with you or even just waking up next to you. I miss being able to touch you in all the right spots or just even to feel your skin next to mine. I miss laying behind you and holding you while we sleep. I miss everything about you. I have always loved the things we do but never thought about how much i would miss them until now. It's those little things that mean the world to me and it's what i look forward to doing when i get home and see you. I miss my wife, my lover, but most of all i miss being next to my best frind Ginger.......